Random Rants on this Somber Day

During this time off of work we have been doing as much research as possible on the TAC. Appt with the MFM was good but not as good as we would have hoped. MFM has suggested that we wait 3-6 months before the surgery and then 3-6 months after that before TTC, for me and DH that just seems like such a long time and we would prefer to start the process sooner rather than later. It's harder when either you have friends that are having babies (one born Saturday) and/or getting pregnant (good friend just announced) and they are going through with no problems and you find yourself to be in that small percentage of woman that seem to have issues. I have my good days and my bad days but reading about the woman on abbyloopers helps because I know that the surgery does work and with prayer we will soon also be in the group of woman that have had successful pregnancies. I'm still taking it one day at a time and try so hard to put on a brave face so that DH doesn't worry about me but nights like Saturday where I cry myself to sleep because my grief is so heavy makes it harder to move forward. I believe in God and his word so I hold on to that and it helps me make it through... Today I am somber because this marks one month since our loss, I can't believe that a month went by so fast because I can still remember everything about that tragic day. I will keep my head up and try not to worry because as the word says pray about it and take your hands off allowing God to move.