Feeling a little Blue

I've been away for sometime and I am finally pulling myself out of a rough patch. It just seems so hard to see so many women bringing life into the world and my sweet angel didn't make it, I am believing God's word and I know that he is here and our family will soon add a healthy happy bundle of joy but the waiting sometimes hurts worst than the loss. I can feel when Jaylece is around and I know that she doesn't want me to dwell because that will surely slow the process of giving her a brother or sister to play hear on earth but I have days like this when I can't help but wonder and wish she was here. I trust God and I know that he will provide me with all my prayers and I'm not rushing him but I hope that soon we get a BFP. I took a short break from the ladies who support me so much but seeing the daily news of pregnancies and BFP's got to be a little too much. I can't lie and say I don't sneak peek at my email just to be sure that everyone is doing ok and I am jealous nor do I envy any of those wonderful ladies but during these periods especially since we have not been able to conceive makes it a little difficult to stay happy when I hurt so much inside. This feeling will not last forever and I will never doubt God I just needed sometime away to get my mind off of TTC, I still pray everyday for all my abbylooper family and that those who are pregnant cook until the baby is full term, I pray for those TTC so that they have the best XMAS gift and get BFP's and I pray for all the miracle babies that have been given life because of this wonderful procedure. I will get over this hump some days are just a little hard. Hope everyone has a great week and I love you all so much!