The last few months

It has been a very wild few months since I've posted much to do with my recent losses in January and February. I was taking clomid and conceived both months with no problem but we lost both angels and are unsure what caused it. January's loss was so early on that the doctor attributed it to being a Blighted Ovum and we really didn't think it would happen again but on 2/27 my Birthday of all days I started to bleed heavily after several days of what I thought was implantation spotting. I have taken several blood tests to ensure my HCG levels were at zero, Wednesaday's test was the most difficult because it was the final test and I was at <2. Seeing that number was harder then I could ever imagine because I was holding onto hope that I had caught my rainbow. I trust in God and know that my time is coming, I know that one day I will add to my family and we will continue to grow in love. I am meeting with an Endocronologist tomorrow so we can get my hormones together once and for all so that come April we will catch that rainbows, yes I said rainbows because I will be happy with one but it would be so great if we were blessed with two. Not that God has to if it is not in his will but with how ever many he chooses for my family we will gladly oblige. :)

My road to TTC

I haven't posted in a while and my friend asked me to read her blog so  I thought about all the events that has gone on in the last month and wanted to share. My clomid cycle #2 had many ups and downs, I took my meds and went in for my 21 day progesterone test showing that I had not ovulated. Well low and behold within 2 weeks I took a HPT thinking it was a OPK. I didn't know that they placed a free HPT in the box and just grabbed a stick, well I took my shower and once I got out I checked to see if I had the magic dark second line and I did... Well that second line was actually a BFP as I saw out of the corner of my eye this test said Pregnant Not Pregnant on the side instead of it saying EPT Ovulation Test. I was estactic and ran to tell DH. I emailed my doctor and waited the 48 hours for her to respond, she finally called and wanted me to come into the office as soon as possible this was Friday so I had to wait the long weekend before I could get the official positive from my doctor. The weekend passed as any other until Saturday night. I started spotting and would not allow myself to stress because it was just implantation bleeding, I didn't tell DH at that time. Sunday morning my heart broke I began my cycle full force with a lot of cramping and I knew that my excitement was to be short lived. I went through the day and night cramping and crying because the pregnancy that I so hoped for had come to an end as soon as it began, I went into the doctors office and my HCG was very low so the Doctor said that it was possibly a blighted ovum and not a real pregnancy. I still have been unable to grasp what happened but put my big girl painties on and started my clomid cycle 3. I am currently trying to keep my thoughts positive and my eye on the prize as we cross our fingers that we hit the "jackpot" this month.